Recently as my husband and I sat in church listening to a great message the fire alarm went off.  We turned to each other and grinned from ear to ear.  We both knew it was a false alarm you could say we had that parent instinct kick in.  As our pastor stood at the alter and joked about how one of those wild teenagers must have not made it to their class all I could do was THANK GOD.  I mean I have one of those wild teenagers but I knew she would be where she was supposed to be.  It was that other one….that little boy that loves buttons.


Our pastor went onto confirm that it indeed was not one of those teens and I sat at the edge of my seat dear Jesus, please dear Jesus, heelllllooooo Jesus ohh it was one of those crazy 9 year olds he says where my response out loud in the middle of church was THANK YOU IT WAS NOT MY KID.

After service was done I did my normal walk to go collect my children and when I reached the toddler area where little man was at I was delivered with a smile and a…….

Hey did you hear what he did???

It was him it was little man that had decided to set off the fire alarm.

You might wonder why I’m sharing this story with you and mainly because I want you to know this right here is my life.  I never try to beauty up what foster care is and who I am as a parent.  While there is pain there’s beauty, a lot of laughter and REALLY???? moments.

See what I’ve seen God do in me mostly since saying YES is trusting in him.  Trusting in the moments he provides to laugh in, cry in and build in.

I know as a mom I’ve gotten caught up on what others think of me.  When my silent alarm goes off inside me as I get eyes because I have a row of children following behind me in the store, or maybe little man is that toddler in the store screaming at me after a long day of appointments, visits and let downs.

See foster care has allowed me to be fine being in those moments, because I know the other side of their story.  What foster care has done for me is bring me stories of pain but what my God has done for me was set off alarms that remind me of his LOVE and what he’s done in our story.